It was 1948. I was one of the most famous artists of the time. Everything anyone could ever wish for came to me. People went to the theatre to see my films. They bought my records to hear me sing. I was sought after and admired. But that was the last year the world has ever heard of me. No, I didn't die. In fact, I lived again... I lived a happy, quiet, full life.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
On Marriage and Being a Fangirl
This is obviously my first post of the year. Yay! I'm especially thrilled this year because I'll be travelling to Korea in May. Oh Lord, please help me get that much needed visa. I've been rejected in 2007 when I first applied. I think I even posted a few entries to this blog about that missed chance. Since it's still in May, I believe it's best to apply for a visa a month before, so that would be April. Oh gosh! I cannot wait!
As for the things my friend and I will be doing, there's nothing final yet. Heck, we're just too ecstatic it doesn't matter if we'd ever look like clueless foreigners there. And as trivial as it sounds, the real reason I'm going to Korea is to find my favorite Korean actor, Jang Hyuk. Let me ease my fellow fangirls' worries, I won't be stalking him. But I will be praying that some form of a miracle from above will bring me to him. Haha! Forgive me. I've been this crazy for several months now.
And when everyone else is pushing me to get married because they worry too much that I'm nearing my edge, I hold on to this obsession like a teenager dying to meet her crush. Oh life! What to do?
There have been a few chances but I just couldn't force myself, right? I believe that love should bind two people together. When there's no love, what is there to hold on to? And I'm not even the superficial type. I don't care whatever one looks like, just as long as I feel a certain "spark". Crap. Who believes in spark in this day and age? I do! I want to feel my heart jump, leap, fly and soar whenever I see that someone. I want to work hard for a relationship that I want so much.
My friends say I'm too idealistic yet impractical. That there's no such thing as romantic love. That most people don't end up with their true love. That I will grow old alone if it's all about feelings. Am I a hopeless romantic or merely hopeless? For now, I don't want to worry about it. All I'm thinking of is that trip to Korea. I guess marriage and fangirling really don't go together.
As for the things my friend and I will be doing, there's nothing final yet. Heck, we're just too ecstatic it doesn't matter if we'd ever look like clueless foreigners there. And as trivial as it sounds, the real reason I'm going to Korea is to find my favorite Korean actor, Jang Hyuk. Let me ease my fellow fangirls' worries, I won't be stalking him. But I will be praying that some form of a miracle from above will bring me to him. Haha! Forgive me. I've been this crazy for several months now.
And when everyone else is pushing me to get married because they worry too much that I'm nearing my edge, I hold on to this obsession like a teenager dying to meet her crush. Oh life! What to do?
There have been a few chances but I just couldn't force myself, right? I believe that love should bind two people together. When there's no love, what is there to hold on to? And I'm not even the superficial type. I don't care whatever one looks like, just as long as I feel a certain "spark". Crap. Who believes in spark in this day and age? I do! I want to feel my heart jump, leap, fly and soar whenever I see that someone. I want to work hard for a relationship that I want so much.
My friends say I'm too idealistic yet impractical. That there's no such thing as romantic love. That most people don't end up with their true love. That I will grow old alone if it's all about feelings. Am I a hopeless romantic or merely hopeless? For now, I don't want to worry about it. All I'm thinking of is that trip to Korea. I guess marriage and fangirling really don't go together.
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