Life is a constant cycle of high and low. Guess that right now, I'm somewhere in the middle and it's not a good thing. The last few posts I made on this blog, I wrote with clarity of mind and emotion. But right now, I don't know what to feel. It's like facing a wall, knowing there's no way out. Or maybe, it's kind of standing at an intersection not knowing which way to turn. I'd like to believe my predicament is the latter one.
Dreams. I've had so many of them. But it seems like those are all that I have. Heard from someone that dreams remain to be such if we don't work hard to achieve it. I know I have not been doing enough to turn those dreams into reality. It's my fault. But how? How do I get the passion? Feels like I'm running out of time. I don;t know.
Then, there are dreams I wish I had control over. I don't. Since the beginning of this blog, it's been a constant wish of mine to meet someone and settle down but really, all the work that can be done is to pray. Maybe I haven't prayed enough. Maybe I don't need it as much as I think I do. Or maybe, as cliche as it sounds, the right one will come in the right place at the right time. Again, I don't know.
I'm not even sure why I'm writing on this blog again. Too many thoughts cloud my usually calm and sane mind. But tonight...Ah tonight is different. I feel like I've awakened from years of slumber that it's hard to think clearly. I'm like an exhausted battery that needs to be charged to go working again.
And there's too many frustrations that aren't even that important for which I'm struggling to come to terms with.
Oh goodness, why do I have to make my life more complex than it is? Maybe I have to chill a little bit. And maybe I should accept whatever life brings and find contentment where I can find.
Dreams. I've had so many of them. But it seems like those are all that I have. Heard from someone that dreams remain to be such if we don't work hard to achieve it. I know I have not been doing enough to turn those dreams into reality. It's my fault. But how? How do I get the passion? Feels like I'm running out of time. I don;t know.
Then, there are dreams I wish I had control over. I don't. Since the beginning of this blog, it's been a constant wish of mine to meet someone and settle down but really, all the work that can be done is to pray. Maybe I haven't prayed enough. Maybe I don't need it as much as I think I do. Or maybe, as cliche as it sounds, the right one will come in the right place at the right time. Again, I don't know.
I'm not even sure why I'm writing on this blog again. Too many thoughts cloud my usually calm and sane mind. But tonight...Ah tonight is different. I feel like I've awakened from years of slumber that it's hard to think clearly. I'm like an exhausted battery that needs to be charged to go working again.
And there's too many frustrations that aren't even that important for which I'm struggling to come to terms with.
Oh goodness, why do I have to make my life more complex than it is? Maybe I have to chill a little bit. And maybe I should accept whatever life brings and find contentment where I can find.
