Kim Jung Hoon

Oh my God!!!! Just happened to see the man of my dreams! Nyahaha! Eto na naman ako...Hehe...Ewan basta, Kim Jung Hoon rocks my world na! Just look at him! Look! Ain't he a cutie pie? I lurv him na! Hihi...

Here's his profile:

Name: Kim Jung Hoon
Date of birth: 1980 January 20th (oh my, wala pang 2 years ang age difference namin. hihi. as if my pag-asa ako dv? oks lang, at least di me ganun ka-jonda sa kanya. nyahaha!)
Height: 177 cm
Weight: 60kg
Blood Type: AB
Siblings: 2 elder brother, an elder sister
Educational background: Seoul National University
Debut: as leader and lead vocals for group 'UN'
Debut song: 'Voicemail' (2002)
Appearances/t.v work: Orange, Banjun Drama, Palace
Hobbies: listening to music, computer games and pool

Pix pa nga jan! Hehe...



Side view pa lang 'yan, ulam na!




Grabe, mas maganda pa siya sa akin. Ano ba 'yan?!




Kung marunong lang me sanang bumasa ng Korean script dv? Ano kaya nakasulat? Kim Jung Hoon loves me? Ngek! Dehins puwede, strict bf ko. Nasaan?! Ay wala pala, imagination ko lang. Hihi...




Cute ng eyes niya grabe!!! Hilig ko talaga sa singkit.


Goodness! Kung ganyan ang itsurang makikita ko everyday, lagi na lang siguro ako mapapangingiti kahit mapagkamalan pa akong baliw. Hihi....

When I was young

This one's a self-portrait. Yup, it's moi when I was three years old. Such an ugly duckling. Hihi....the title I chose for this sketch: Me, Myself and I.

It gives me a nostalgic feeling each time I see things that bring back childhood memories. I miss being a kid. Mommy misses the good ol' days when her kids were very polite. Hihi...Whenever mommy and I would have an argument, she'd tell me that when I was little (I still am, hihi) I was obedient and polite daw. Yeah, I do remember that. Hindi ako naging problem child. Pramiz! Siguro kasi, nung magka-isip na ako at may mga pinaniniwalaan na rin, dun na nag-umpisa 'yung pagiging madada ko. Napaka-opinionated ko kasing tao eh. Ewan ko ba. Basta, I'll try to be more mabait. Pramiz!

Lovers' Sunset

This one's called, Lovers' Sunset. When I painted this one, the original idea was to place a woman at the center. My fickle mind guessed it was better to include a man so the woman won't be that lonely. Romantic eh? I don't think so. Oh well, the result? Devastating! Hihi. So many things I wish I could have changed: an empty space, the figure of the man, the right (even the left) elbow of the woman (anatomically disproportionate), etc., etc.

But hey, no regrets dapat. There's always a next time. Kaya lang, with all the work that I have, I hardly have time to draw and paint. Nangangalawang na yata ako. Waaaah!!!!!

Joyeux Noël et Bonne Année !

In My Life
by Moi

Epilogue

They say a second chance at love is always sweeter. I didn’t believe in it until my love for Aurora proved it true.

She's my light, my heart, my soul and the reason why I keep on looking forward to each and every passing day of my life.

It's been three years since I last saw her beautiful face. I have never known anyone endure so much pain and suffering as much as Aurora did in her entire lifetime. But in all of life's cruelty, she only had a warm smile for an answer.

It was months after our twins were born when the doctors determined she had developed brain cancer due to the car accident she had years earlier.

When the doctors revealed to us her true condition, they gave her only a few months to live. But Aurora was positive she would get well for our children. She fought it till the end no matter how painful it was.

Nobody could ever imagine how much physical pain she had to endure from all the medications the doctors gave her. Aurora fought her last battle until her body could no longer tolerate the suffering.

She died peacefully one fine morning in the comfort of our house. The beauty of the garden which she painstakingly cultivated witnessed her death.

Aurora accepted her fate as she welcomed her worst enemy with warmth and admiration. The moment she knew there was nothing the doctors could do to save her, she suggested that I get married again. But…how can I be with someone when I’m still hopelessly in love with her?

When she died, everything else in my life seemed to have fallen apart. I had wished that I realized my love for her earlier so I wouldn't have any regrets to battle within myself.

I wish I was like Aurora who never questioned the unfortunate events that came her way, who always sought to find something good no matter how bad things turned out.

The painful reality is that I had her all my life. But when I realized I wanted her, death had to take her away.

It's been three years since she had gone. I can still remember every scent, every moment, every part and every detail of her.

I will always miss Aurora. I will always want her. She is someone who will stay with me forever no matter where the road will take me.

I loved her then. I still hopelessly love her now. I know time heals all wounds. If she were alive today, she'd probably insist that instead of sinking in despair, I should cheer up and move on.

I may be alone now but I know, as long as I carry Aurora’s love with me, I will never have to be lonely.

Hay gulay...kaya pala super bagal ng internet connection, internet access in the Southeast Asian region has been badly damaged due to the earthquake that hit Taiwan yesterday. Too bad something like that happened. But then again, we really can't avoid natural disasters. I heard the earthquake was also felt in Basco, Batanes which is nearer Taiwan than the Philippine mainland.

Naku, I suddenly remembered my ex-bf Tony Sun Xie Zhi! Oh my gah! Sana hindi naman siya masyado naapektuhan ng lindol. Syempre, I still like him. Hehe...How could I ever forget the man who inspired me to write three successful fanfics? Nyahaha!!! Feeling close va? Hihi...

Ay wait, here's the advisory that ISP posted regarding the internet access problem:

TRI-ISYS ADVISORY

Greetings from Tri-Isys Internet!

We regret to inform you that our Internet service is currently experiencing slow browsing:

Service Outage Time Start:	11:40h local time, December 27, 2006
Service Outage expected to be Restored:	(no definite time)
Expected Total Outage Duration:	(no definite time)

Service Outage Details: Several International cable facilities – Including the system that our MAIN PROVIDER is using, specifically APCN2 and its secondary route – have experienced major cable breaks due to the recent earthquake in Taiwan measuring 7.2 in the Richter scale. As a result of this, majority of our services with international connectivity have been seriously affected and are currently unavailable. Presently, the international consortium operating the cable system has already mobilized cable ships to repair the affected segments of APCN 1 & 2, EAC, SEMEWE and GP-China US; C2C and restoration work will be conducted round the clock

We apologize for the inconvenience caused by the outage.Thank you for your kind understanding.

For more info. please contact our Helpdesk Support at 230-8000 or 480-0888.

Cordially,
Technical Support Team
Inter-Island Information Systems, Inc.

HORSE IN THE YEAR OF THE BOAR/PIG

Success and disappointment walk hand in hand in the Horses path during the year. If success is to be attained, Horse must put affairs of all types under tight and orderly control. Concentration and hard work are a must in order for it to be a successful year. Beware of over-indulgence. You will also find it hard to retain money so keep a tight rein on expenses. This may be a year for saving rather than acquiring. Do not make judgements on others at work too hastily and exercise patience especially at home for there are indications of possible disharmony both at work and at home.

This is a year of caution; avoid risks both physically and financially although Horse born in 1942 can expect some windfall. In March and October you can expect some good news but you must make of the most of the good times as there are some months you will need to stay strong, follow the advice monthly on this website and place your annual cures and enhancers. Stay focused this year, there is nothing to worry about just think about all your actions.

You need to spend time with family and friends as they will feel rejected in 2007.

Cautions for 2007: Those of you born in the water year of the horse in 1942 can expect good news regarding wealth. If you were born in 1978 then the earth Horse should not take risks in 2007 and those young Horses born in 1990 must stay focused this year as outside influences from friends can take you away from studies.

Cautions for month: Take extra care in the June, August, October and December and make sure you check back with us monthly to get your updates for the month.

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Oh well...again, posted this just for the fun of it. If there are not-so-good predictions, I guess they should serve only as warning.

May pangontra dyan. Believe in the power of the Lord Almighty.

God bless us all !!!!!

Ang Tunay na Wishlist sa '07

1. Good health
2. Happiness
3. Long life (sa akin at sa aking loved ones)
4. Contentment
5. Lovelife (nyahaha! feel like singing kailan, mymp version)

Mga pilit kong gagawin sa 2007:

1. Iwasan ang magsungit. (minsan na lang 'to pramiz!)
2. Bawasan ang pagiging sensitive. (medyo nabawasan na in fairness)
3. I-overcome ang pagiging shy. (wala maniwala sa akin dito. hindi nga, shy ako! nyahaha!!!)
4. Bawasan ang katakawan. (ang mga bulate ko, parati kasing tag-gutom. hihi)
5. Matulog nang maaga. (puro na ako pimples!)
6. Matutong mag-ipon. (ang baba ng sweldo ko, ang taas ng pamasahe. paano me makakaipon?huhu)
7. Piliting tapusin ang nasimulan. (sketch na walang finishing, script na walang next scene, nobelang walang conclusion...)
8. Umuwi ng maaga (grabe, trabaho naman ang dahilan kaya ako na-l-late ng uwi)
9. Matutong ibaba ng konti ang pride. (guilty as charged)
10. Get a life. (puro na lang ako internet, dito na rin gimikan ko...walang social life. bad! huhu)

Ito na siguro ang pinakamasayang Pasko para sa akin. Actually, every year masaya ako basta lang buo ang pamilya at walang may sakit. Mas memorable lang ngayon kasi kahit paano malaki na ang improvement ng bahay. Yup, sa wakas, pinapaayos na ang bahay, hindi nga lang ganun kalaki ang budget kaya parating na-d-delay. I'm positive naman na magagawa kahit paunti-unti.

Medyo inaantok ako ngayon. Ang aga ko kasi nagising para magsimba. Ay pero wala akong angal. It's Christ's birth. I think it's only but reasonable to pay him a visit on his special day. Feeling ko nga, everyday birthday niya kasi he always showers me with blessings. Sobrang thankful ako...

Malapit na nga palang matapos ang taon. Syempre ang prayers ko pang New Year na rin abot. Sana humaba pa buhay nina mommy at daddy. I can't imagine life without them. Basta, ayoko muna isipin. Alam ko matagal ko pa silang makakasama. Ang dami ko pang pangarap for them eh. Gusto ko maipasyal sila sa ibang bansa. Syempre kung aabutin pa nila, gusto ko makita nila ang magiging mga anak ko. Ahehe...Anak na agad, wala pa ngang bf. Hihi...

Ay naalala ko tuloy ang aking lovelife na non-existent. Ayoko na muna isipin. Darating din ang pag-ibig sa tamang panahon. 'Wag pilitin.

Lastly, may wish din ako para sa brother kong si Allan: Sana magkaroon na siya ng gf. Ang torpe kasi. Hay gulay, kung pwede nga lang ako ang manligaw para sa kanya, ginawa ko na. Kaso dehins pwede...Kung sino man ang mapapangasawa niya, napaka-swerte kasi masinop ang kapatid ko sa pera at talaga namang isang tunay na gentleman. Ako na nga lang, kung alagaan niya, sobra-sobra eh. Bait talaga ng kapatid ko, minsan tinotopak nga lang. Hehe...sino bang tao ang hindi tinotopak? Ako madalas. Hihi....

New Discovery

Hihi...Ang saya. May bagong crush ako. Susme! Pabata nang pabata ang kinaaliwan ko these days. Ang cute kasi ng vocalist ng Callalily. His name is Kean. Oh dv? Parang nagkulang lang ng R, pwede na makabuo ng KAREN sa letters ng name niya? Hihi...Ang cute niya talaga, galing pang kumanta. At kapag umindak, grabe, daig pa si Ricky Martin! Hihi...Ma-request nga na pa-add sa Friendster. Nyahaha! Ang jologs ko! Magagalit sa akin si kuya nito. In fairness, naaliw siya kanina sa Merry Myxmas. Nice.

Naku, makabili nga ng Destination XYZ ng Callalily. Nyahaha!!!! Wala lang. Baliw na ata talaga ako. Waaaah!!!!

Someday
by Nina

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see it through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see,I won't even miss you
Someday, someday

Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down, and I'm not doin' well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, I want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you

The song is nice to listen to. Kaya lang, there's bitterness in it. Parang it's meant to give false hopes din. I mean, if you're really over and done with someone, there's no point in looking forward to a regretful someday. The bitter someday is only a wish. An illusion. A curse.

Oh well, maybe it's a woman's way to get her senses back after a romance that had gone haywire...I'm not very convinced though. For me kasi, if I were to let go of someone, I'd probably wish him well no matter how bad things have gone. Altruism? Not exactly. Acceptance. Yes, learning to accept that when we love, there's always a risk that goes with it. But at least, we loved.

We all have to live at what we have now. If it hurts today, we can never be sure if it still does in the coming days. The song has a positive effect on me. It makes me all the more convinced that life is too precious and beautiful to be keeping hatred and bitterness.

I might be feeling a little frustrated now but on a more positive "someday" note, I know things will get better. We all love and probably not all of us are loved back the way we want to, but it shouldn't end there.

As the officiating priest in the last mass I attended mentioned in his homily: The worst thing may happen but one should always see through the positive aspect of it. There is a good reason behind it somewhere. We may not see it now but in God's perfect time, we will. And we find out what is, we will be grateful it did happen.

What the &%^@ is wrong with Friendster? Damn. I always get the email verification notice. No matter if I open my email and click on the verification link, it wouldn't work! Kainis!!!!!











Cool....cool....cool....Ayan, finally I can't see the annoying verification churva! Okay na! It worked! Goodness! Paskong-pasko iniinis ako ah! Hihi...jowk!

In My Life

I was blind not to have seen the beauty in you,
and failed to see the importance of your love for me.
Now I regret each moment lost,
each passing day that’s wasted without your love.
From now on, I’ll be holding on to a dream,
that each moment of my life,
You will serve as my light.
I’ll be wishing you’d come back to me.
Then I won’t have to be lonely.

Gemini Ka Ba?

Gemini

May 21 - June 20

Traits

1. You want to know everything but never dig quite deep enough, usually just skimming the surface.

2. Gemini is a jack of all trades.

3. Gemini is highly adaptable and likes change and variety.

4. You are restless and very clever with the use of your hands.

5. Gemini is versatile, fickle, intelligent, creative, quick, neat, and curious.

Negative Aspects

1. You can be selfish, nervous, inconsistent, deceptive, changeable, and confused.

2. You have a weak will-power, and you tend to scatter your forces.

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Geez. I'm a true-blue Gemini. Just look at how many times I changed the format of this post. My most negative trait...I do so many things all at the same time but can't seem to finish one. Oh goodness, I suddenly remembered my script. When will I ever finish the damn script?! Waaaaah!!!!!

Enchanted at Enchanted Kingdom

Wahaha!!! I'm back. Yep, I've been missing in action for nearly two days. And that's all because of Enchanted Kingdom. Do I sound like I'm complaining? Nope! Never ever! Hihi...Truth is, I enjoyed it a lot!

Honestly, it was my first time to visit Enchanted Kingdom but what an experience that was! HERO TV sponsored the event and I was among the lucky people who have been given free pass. Yep, lucky me! Hehe...

Me and my friends in the office rode bus number 4 on the way to Enchanted. From the Eugenio Lopez Drive, the bus left for Enchanted Kingdom at around 12 noon via C5. Probably, the driver was trying to escape the EDSA traffic. Unfortunately, the C5 route was far worse. It took us more than 2 hours to reach Laguna. The exact time of arrival at the Enchanted? 2:10 pm...Or was it? Ah basta, it was soooooo late na! We were caught in a messy traffic kasi at UP Diliman. I guess it was all because of the Lantern Parade which I heard was cancelled because of a mass rally in the campus. Sayang naman...When I was in college, I'd always anticipate for the Lantern parade at syempre 'yung oblation run. Nyahaha!!!!

Back to my Enchanting day at Enchanted, so there, we came a little over our anticipated time of arrival. My officemates/friends all haven't eaten lunch yet so we proceeded immediately to the nearest foodstall in the area. Ayun, kain muna kami as we watched the program which HERO TV guys hosted.

After that, we headed to the first ride we ever had for the day, the Roller Skater. Oh my goodness! It was hell of an experience. I thought I was going to lose my mind. My neck was nearly breaking as the car sloped sideways, downwards...faster than a speeding bullet. An exaggeration? Nope, it isn't. It's an understatement. Nyahaha!!!

The succeeding rides were a lot easier na compared to roller skater. Actually, I wanted to try the more thrilling rides, kaya lang bukod sa kulang sa oras wala naman akong mahatak. Sayang! I wanted to try the Space Shuttle sana! Hihi...If there was someone who was willing to ride with me nga sana, nakasakay na siguro ako! Ahehe...Naku, sa next na punta ko, pramiz, mag-s-space shuttle ako, kesehodang maiwan ko pa kaluluwa ko sa sobrang kaba! Nyahaha!!!!

So, all in all, I was able to complete 4 rides. Roller Skater, Flying Fiesta, Wheel of Fate and Rialto. Ang saya saya! Don't care if I got dizzy after each ride basta the experience brought me extreme joy.

I'm actually planning to return. Oh dv?! The next time I hope to bring my family along. Medyo takot sina Mommy at Daddy pero my brother Allan is ultra-NR sa rides. Hihi...Tingnan ko lang ang tibay ng dibdib niya sa Space Shuttle! Nyahaha!!!

Drive

I know I need to get back to writing. The script that I’ve been doing all this time is still not finished. It makes me feel damn frustrated. What’s wrong with me? The story had long been completed in my head but I can’t seem to finish typing it.

Maybe I need to focus. There are so many things that preoccupy my restless mind, most of which are insignificant.

Maybe I need some time off. Work eats up most of my time.

So many reasons, so many excuses. I guess, what I lack is inspiration, a drive to keep me moving.

I need to be inspired, not by a person but by the dream I have so long desired. How many times have I planned to join a scriptwriting contest and suddenly back out? This time, I know I have to take the initial steps that will lead to the realization of the dream. A contest alone won’t lead me to victory. It’s the challenges and obstacles that I’ll meet along the way that will test my capacity to succeed. If success will ever come my way...

MR. BIG

MR. BIG (1988-1997) L-R: Eric Martin, Paul Gilbert, Pat Torpey and Billy Sheehan.


MR. BIG (1997-2002) L-R: Ritchie Kotzen, Pat Torpey, Billy Sheehan and Eric Martin.

Goodness, where have I been hibernating all this time? How come I never knew about Paul Gilbert leaving Mr. Big? Guess I've been so addicted to BSB that I neglected my first beloved band.

I remember liking, erm..."loving" them in my junior year in high school. That was way back in '93 when Bon Jovi, Eraserheards and tons of other local rock bands were lording over the local airwaves.

I love that their music is rock but still manages to be catchy and melodic. Not at all irritating. Other rock bands just alienate me. Mr. Big is amazing to have gotten me addicted to them for years. So addicted that If I'd be given a chance to record an album (if it happens, hehe), I'll do a cover of all my favorite Mr. Big songs.

Here are my favorites:

Nothing But Love
Seven Impossible Days
Just Take My Heart
Ain't Seen Love Like That
If That's What It Takes
Mr. Gone
To Be With You
Goin' Where The Wind Blows

The Best Film

Ordinary People (1980)
(Based on the novel by Judith Guest)
Directed by Robert Redford

Memorable lines:

Beth Jarrett (Mary Tyler Moore) to her husband Calvin (Donald Sutherland) in reference to their son Conrad (Timothy Hutton) : Hate him! How could I hate him? Mothers don't hate their sons! Is that what he told you? You see how you believe everything he tells you? And you can't do the same for me, you can't! God I don't know what anyone wants from me anymore!

Calvin Jarrett (Sutherland) to his wife Beth (Moore) : We would have been all right if there hadn't been any mess. But you can't handle mess. You need everything neat and easy. I don't know. Maybe you can't love anybody. It was so much Buck. When Buck died, it was like you buried all your love with him, and I don't understand that, I just don't know, I don't... maybe it wasn't even Buck; maybe it was just you. Maybe, finally, it was the best of you that you buried. But whatever it was... I don't know who you are. I don't know what we've been playing at. So I was crying. Because I don't know if I love you any more. And I don't know what I'm going to do without that.

The mother-son conflict:

Conrad (Hutton) : You woulda visited Buck if he was in the hospital.

Beth (Moore) : Buck would have never been in the hospital!

Fear for my loved ones

Since I always come home at around 9-10 pm and have to eat dinner afterward, there's no other option but to sleep late every night. Pababain daw muna ang kinain. That's what my parents would often tell me.

Last night was different because I intentionally slept late. Super Late. I remember looking at the wall clock. It was 2:30 am. Why? Why? Why?

It's like this...for two straight nights, I've been having creepy dreams. Honestly, the words that best fit the quality of my dreams are: scary and heartbreaking. I see relatives dying, even witnessing their burial. Everything seems so real. Every detail, so vivid. When it gets scary, it doesn't help at all if the dream is detailed.

Last night as I have been trying to point out, I slept so late. Television helped a lot. It accompanied me throughout the whole process of trying to escape the inevitable, impending lethargy. There weren't too many shows to watch since it was so late. Thank God there's MYX. Oh by the way, it's the one on Studio 23 kasi sa bundok namin, walang cable. Ngek!

Anyways, when finally my angels whispered to my ears that I ought to sleep na, there I pleaded with them to help me pray to God that He continue blessing my family, friends and loved ones because they're all I ever care for in this world. Ayoko na ng katakot na panaginip about them. Please po, Lord.

So happy that when I woke up this morning, I realized I didn't dream any of those horrifying ones I had the previous nights. I think my dream last night included an acquaintance of mine from office. We were like lovers in that dream. Weird. I can't even think of him in a romantic perspective. Kabaligtaran 'yun siguro...Hehe...

Hay naku, at least it's not about people dying. Hopefully, tonight it'll get better. Ayoko na kasing matakot. It's hard to imagine losing a loved one. Basta, it's my greatest fear.