Sunday, July 08, 2007
Survey ulit...
* neither? hehe...pa-smart lang ako
2. The singer or the dancer?
* singer ehehe...
3. Sense of humor or the mysterious
type?
* sense of humor syempre!
4. Pakipot or straight forward?
* straight forward
5. The romantic or the silent type?
* romantic of course...
6. Science or math?
* math
7. chinese type or typical?
* who me? chinita ako eh...
8. moreno/morena o maputi?
* again, me? in between pwede? hehe...
9. kung mastastranded ka sa isla... cno
ang gusto mong mkasama...
* si Lord
10. kung mahuhulog na sa bangin ang
taong mhal ka at taong mahal mo... cno
ililigtas mo?
* ang hirap naman, wala na lang hehe...
Naniniwala ka ba sa.....
a. dont fall in love with friends...
* hindi ah. i think mas maganda na friends muna kayo ng partner mo bago maging kayo or else how would you know the person well?
b. love at first sight...
* pwede, siguro, i don't know!
c. love is blind…
* nope!
d. collect and select...
* no way!
e. best friends are the best lovers...
* possible talaga!
11. ano nagpapahirap ng loob mo?
* wala naman actually...
12. ano mas gusto mo: tahimik kang
nasasaktan o alam ng lahat?
* ako lang, tahimik nga siguro
13. ano ang mga bagay na sa tingin mo
mababaw iyakan?
* movies, parati na lang akong umiiyak sa panonood ko. yurrrrr!!!! hehe...
14. kung iiyak ka ulit, ano ang
dahilan?
* siguro a loss will really make me cry that much
15. sabi nila, what you dont know wont
hurt u. tama?
* totoo pero minsan mas tama malaman ang totoo...
16. sakaling bigyan ka ng pagkakataong
magtanong sa Diyos, ano tatanong mo?
* may mansion po ba ako sa heaven?
17. ano ba silbi ng survey sayo?
* wala lang, pampaalis ng boredom...
18. sa lahat ng nagawa mo ngayong
araw, ano pinagsisisihan mo?
* wala
19. marami ka pabang gustong gawin sa
buhay? ano?
* super dami pa. magsulat para sa isang pelikula, makapag-publish ng libro...
20. pag sinabi ba syo na malapit nang
dumating ang taong para sayo,
ano sasabihin mo?
* sana nga...
21. 5 years from now, may pamilya ka
na .. ung asawa mo kaya ung taong
inaasam mo?
* i'm positive about that. alam ko na siya ang ibibigay ni lord sa akin, na pang-habang buhay ang pag-iibigan namin. kahit na matanda na kami, yung love at passion ay narun pa rin at kasama namin si Lord, sentro ng relasyon namin hanggang sa pagtanda namin. odv? hopeless romantic mode na naman ako! hehehe....
22. ano pa ba ang hinihintay mo?
* var pay hehe...
23. masakit kalimutan ang isang bagay,
lalo na ang isang tao. pano ka
maglibang ng sarili?
* libang? sa bahay lang ako eh...
24. magiging masaya ka kaya kung
makuha mo nga yung taong mahal mo pero
di ka nya mahal?
* ay ayoko ng ganun. dapat pareho kaming nagmamahalan or else 'wag na lang. i won't force a person to like me just because i like him. i would rather be alone...and siguro if i love the person i'll just let him find his happiness in another woman. ganun na lang yun.
25. anong feeling ng laging iniiwanan?
* hindi pa naman...wala pa eh...
26. ano naman ang feeling ng
nangiiwan?
* wala pa ring ganyan...
27. sakaling makita mo na siya, handa
ka ba ulit sumugal at masaktan?
* isugal ang alin? haha..hindi ako maka-relate...
28. malayo na ang narating mo,
babalikan mo pa ba ang nakaraan?
* move forward parati...
29. ano pa ang halaga ng iloveyou
ngayon?
* syempre may halaga pa ito. you should say it if you only mean it.
30. isang salita lang ng totoong
nararamdaman mo ngayon?
* happy!
Saturday, July 07, 2007
The Victory in Defeat
Just when everything has been ironed out for my planned Korean trip, there goes one of the most painful disappointments of my life: My visa application had been denied.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
What Sign Is Your True Love?
Your True Love Is a Taurus |
Why you'll love a Taurus: Romantic and sentimental, a Taurus can provide you with the security you need. And you both share a fondness for the finest things, from great food to luxury vacations. Why a Taurus will love you: You have the honesty and direct approach that down to earth Taurus desires. And enough elegance to show a Taurus a few new decadent delights! |
What Do People Think Of Your Face?
What Your Face Says |
At first glance, people see you as confident and determined. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody. |
Monday, July 02, 2007
What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?
Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence |
You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. |
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?
You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Picky |
You have no problem attracting guys - and even dating a little It's just around second or third date time where you start to see faults If a guy isn't near perfect, you're not into him. It's good to have standards - but yours rule almost everyone out. |
Are You An Easy Girl?
Guys Think You're Hard to Get |
You're the furthest thing from easy. You're proper, reserved, and maybe even a little shy. While you don't need a mini skirt and high heels to attract Mr. Right, being a little more flirty couldn't hurt. A sexy top or little smile may encourage new guys to approach you - and you'll still come off as a nice girl. |
Are You A Hot Chick?
You Are Sometimes Considered a Hot Chick |
While you may not get the most offers in the room, You've got a good thing going - dating wise You could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guys But in general, you are doing just fine! |
How Do Men See You?
Men See You As Understated |
You are an intriguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well |
The Sesame Street Personality Quiz
You Are Bert |
Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to other |
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Random Questions
smile..
- Ate Nitz
2. What were you doing at 5:00 this
morning?
- sleeping...
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- downloading "Green Tinted Sixties Mind" by Mr. Big
4. Who was the last person who broke
your heart?
- wala syempre kasi ako ay isang SSB, k?
5. What is the last thing you said
aloud?
- can't even recall, lagi kasi akong high-pitched pag nagsasalita kaya parang lagi akong naka-mic hehe...
6. How many different things did you
drink today?
- water, milk, buko juice, iced tea, strawberry juice. ngeks! ang dami ko palang nainom today! ehehe...
7. What color is your hairbrush?
- my favorite color of course, purple!
8. What was the last thing you bought?
- pwede food? hehe...can't remember na kung ano huli kong nabili eh
9. where do you live?
- calocohan este caloocan city
10.What color is your gate?
- blue
11. Where is your brother?
- sa work, call center
12. how was your day yesterday?
- busy busy busy
13. What is the last ice cream flavor
you ate?
- ube ata, may memory gap na ako
14. are you an optimistic one?
- not exactly
15. Do u think your okay?
- siguro
16. Do you talk a lot?
- haha...guilty! super talkative ako eh!
17. are you happy with the love of your
life right now?
- walang love of my life pero alam ko na darating din yun...
18. do you skip meals?
- sometimes
19. you consider yourself smart?
- pa-smart lang hehe....
20. Do you cook your own food?
- if i have time, i cook my own food. i love to experiment eh...
21. reason for living?
- The Lord (always to honor him in everything I do), my family (of course, I love them more than my life)
22. Are you typically a jolly person?
- super!
23. name one enemy of yours:
- i don't have one
24. Do you go to gym?
- nope, but I'd love to
25. song playing at the moment:
- Just Tell Me You Love Me
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Solution to Sadness
Friday, June 08, 2007
If your life was a movie...
THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your music library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song
that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press
the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're
cool
Opening Credits:
. I Want It That Way
Waking Up:
. Passenger's Seat
First Day At School:
. Kaba (hahahaha!!!!!)
Falling In Love:
. Very Special Love (wow! truly!!!!)
Fight Song:
. Maybe
Breaking Up:
. Tuloy Pa Rin (tuloy pa rin ang buhay kahit makipag-break, naks!)
Prom:
. Moon River
Life:
. You Needed Me
Mental Breakdown:
. Till I Met You
Flashback:
. If You Believe
Getting back together:
. Minsan Lang Kita Iibigin
Wedding:
. Sing Me A Song Again Daddy (oh my golly! ano ito? creepy ng game na ito!)
Birth of Child:
.It's Gonna Be Love
Final Battle:
Looking Through the Eyes of Love
Death Scene:
. Learning to Breathe (such an irony! mweks)
Funeral Song:
. Ikaw Lang ang Mamahalin (hindi naman masama actually...)
End Credits:
. Hawak Kamay (nice!)
Sunday, May 27, 2007
My Birthday
Life hasn't been so bad, honestly. It's just that I feel like nothing significant has been happening in my life these past couple of years.
Maybe I have been dreaming all this time. Maybe I've spent most of my years fantasizing about absolutely fantastic things. But I guess, things do reach their saturation point at one time or another.
At this stage in my life, I need to make crucial decisions, which will somehow decide what life I'll be having in the impending future. It could be a choice between loving or letting go, of staying or leaving, of seeking or being found, of learning or teaching. But in all of these, I guess it's the manner I'll choose to handle choices that'll mold my persona to the road to success, mediocrity or failure.
Right now, I want to take a risk, to taste defeat, then if I'm lucky enough, to kiss victory....but then, that's fantasizing the fantastic once again. Guess I'll never really learn.
Help me, God. I need courage.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
1. Where were you 3 hours ago? – bathroom
2. Who are you in love with? – wala
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon? – ngek, nope!
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? – sa theatre hindi pero i always watch films sa bahay. dvd marathon eto. kewl!
20. Your dream vacation? – sa batanes. I’d love to go there!
24. Do you miss anyone right now? – nope
25. Last stage play you saw? – my golly, that was ages ago, can’t recall anymore
28. Who is the last person you sent a Friendster message or comment? – lanie
36. How are you? – a little sad
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over? – never pa naman
43. What does your last text message say? – basta, pangungumusta from a friend of mine
45. Last time you took a shower? – two hours ago
46. Do you need to do laundry? – no
47. What is your heritage? – Spanish-Chinese-French sa mother side; Spanish sa father side
49. Are you rich? – nope
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Personally, there's not one politician I trust anymore. Though it's not right to generalize, to me they're one and the same. I hate to say this but, when people start doubting about leaders' credibility, you know something is ultimately wrong.
Imagine this: to your right, you see people from the government convincing everyone that things are all right when in fact they're not; to your left, you see people who seriously criticize/ oppose the government each for their own political/personal reason.
This has become so much like a stereotypical drama. There always has to be a protagonist and an antagonist. But hey, I'm confused. Which is which? That's an even bigger problem we have. We do not know which truthfully wants to help and which one wants to take advantage of the people. Maybe both, maybe neither, maybe either...whatever!
Okay, I maybe a little harsh on thinking not one of our politicians want to make a good and honest leadership. Maybe there are some. I have yet to find them though...
I hate to say this but politics has become a livelihood for so many leaders. Such a shame really. I don't think it's that bad in other countries. I mean, there must be corruption in other parts of the world but it becomes secondary to helping and serving the country, first and foremost. Unfortunately, it's the other way around in this country: corruption comes first, then public service comes next...if it ever really does.
Getting Sick
Oh..I'm so excited this early. What will happen to me in Korea? Will I like my first ever trip abroad? Will I gain friends? Will I survive alone? Seems to be a little scary but, there must be a good reason behind it other than a chance at traveling: it's a step towards becoming independent. Whew! Sounds kind of serious and noble, eh? But yeah, I need to start experiencing life my way even if it's only for a month, or I'll never learn to do it alone, ever...
Friday, April 06, 2007
Drawing Test (Again)

link: http://www.bored.com/drawthings/save.php?id=860611
erm...should i be happy with the result of this test? ngek! lahat ata nega. suspicious, paranoid, evasive and passive aggressive? nah, why on earth am i taking these personality tests? who cares? and...nobody knows me but me. ah nevermind, gusto ko lang talaga mag-draw kagabi. hehehe...kaso bakit parang bumaba ang picture quality ng nagawa ko after ma-save? kaasar, hindi na detailed yung pic. mas malala pa sa nag-pixelate, haha!!!!
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Drawing Test
link: http://www.bored.com/drawthings/save.php?id=833550

Your Top 2s
1. Karen
2. Kaye
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. sando
2. shorts
Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. love
2. honesty
Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
1. write
2. draw
Two Things You Want Very Badly At The
Moment:
1. halo halo
2. tulog
Two pets you had/have:
1. tiger (sweet lit'l puppy)
2. patty (pretty lit'l kitty)
Two things you did last night:
1. read
2. sleep (of course!)
Two things you ate today:
1. bacon
2. mixed veggies
Two people you Last Talked To:
1. daddy
2. mommy
Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. pahinga
2. write
Two Favorite Holidays:
1. pasko
2. bagong taon
Two favorite beverages:
1. iced tea
2. mango juice
Two favorite TV shows:
1. betty la fea
2. my girl
Two favorite foods:
1. kare-kare
2. burger steak
Two of your least favorite things to
do:
1. hugas pinagkanan
2. laba
Two things you want to do before you
die:
1. travel across the globe
2. write and direct a feature film
Random Questions II
your wallet?
>>> lee dong wook.
2.what time do you go to bed?
>>> 12 midnight.
3.what was the last thing you did
before filling this survey?
>>> was reading other blogs.
4.who's the one you always meet the
most?
>>> family.
5.who's the person you're gonna call
if you need help?
>>> family pa rin.
6.what's on your mind just now?
>>> antok na ako!
7.kissed a complete stranger?
>>> nope.
8.with whom do you wanna have
fun?
>>> family.
9.what's the latest movie you saw?
>>> TMNT.
10.when was the last time you went
out?
>>> kanina.
11.what do you hate the most for now?
>>> pressure sa work.
12.when was the FIRST time you slept
alone?
>>> matagal na.
13.what things you want to do now?
>>> tulog.
14.what do you do everyday besides eat
and sleep?
>>> work and surf the net.
16. What color makes you happy?
>>> yellow and purple.
17.most fave thing in your room?
>>> electric fan.
19. instruments that make you crazy?
>>> wala naman.
20.miss someone?
>>> nope.
21. are you a coffee addict?
>>> nope.
22. are you satisfied with your life
now?
>>> of course!!!!!
23.would you share a glass of water
with a friend?
>>> honestly, not.
24.when was the last time you ate
seafood?
>>> yesterday.
25.ever had a food fight?
>>> nope.
26.what do you usually eat for
breakfast?
>>> kanin at kung anong nakahain na ulam, kinakain ko po...
27.Lost a friendship over something
stupid?
>>> never pa naman.
28. Been really depressed before?
>>> yes.
29.what's your favorite fast food
chain?
>>> jollibee although their customer service sucks bigtime!
30. cried in front of your classmates?
>>> yes.
32. who's on your mind?
>>> who? wala eh...
33. did you ever cheat during an exam?
>>> never!
34. Is kissing normal for our age?
>>> yes.
35.are you childish?
>>> yes.
37.how's your heart lately?
>>> just fine.
Random Questions I
>>> minsan, weird ko dv?
Is there anything that you are craving
for right
now?
>>> halo-halo, ang inet grabe!!!!!!!!
Single or taken?
>>> single
Ever cried for something stupid?
>>>madalas, iyakin ako eh :-(
Do you like anime?
>>> nope.
How about Japanese music?
>>> hindi rin.
What music are you into, anyway?
>>> basta ok sa pandinig kahit ano pang genre yan.
Do you have a malicious mind?
>>> naku, minsan.
First thing you do after watching a
movie
>>> leave the moviehouse? haha...
Do you wash the dishes in your house?
>>> minsan lang din. may pagkatamad ako eh.
Can you last two days without a bath?
>>> hindeeee!!!!
Most common words in your classroom.
>>> classroom? that was ages ago, can't even recall.
The last lie you told your parents
>>> i'm not a good liar so hindi ko na lang tintry, mahahalata lang ako.
2 of the lamest excuses you ever said
to go out
>>> wala.
Still go to the mall with your parents?
>>> syempre naman!
Favorite brand of shoes.
>>> kahit ano...
Are you brand conscious?
>>> nope.
Ever felt un-loved?
>>> dati.
Who do you miss right now?
>>> wala naman.
Watched any good movies lately?
>>> rocky balboa and 300
Addictions?
>>> bacon and burger steak
Is it in you to kill someone?
>>> no way!!! hindi ano!!!!
Daydream a lot?
>>> kinda...
Happy with your life?
>>> of course!!!!
You’d rather lose your mobile or your
mp3 player?
>>> neither.
What do you think about yourself?
>>> ms. congeniality
Ever slept all throughout class?
>>> never! nyek!!!!!
Friday, March 30, 2007
Letting Go
I do not wish to elaborate on why I even cried. But I'm thankful that I have genuinely kind officemates who are ready to extend their help anytime I feel like giving up.
There's one thing I've learned out of all this. Sometimes, to be able to think right, you have to let go of the pain and bitterness kasi when we're too burdened, tendency is we find it hard to distinguish good from bad. Most likely, since pain leads to hatred, anything that we're bound to do is likely along the path of deviousness.
Let go and move on. Oh God, help me move on.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Anything Goes
>> wala eh.
*Do you believe in karma?
>> yup.
*Are you satisfied with yourself?
>> i may not be blessed with so many things but i'm happy the way i am.
*How was your day?
>> tiring.
*What's on your mind right now?
>> fiction, get back to writing.
*What if a stranger of the opposite
sex comes up to you and say, "Hi, i'd
really like to know you. Can i have
your number?"
>> i'm sorry?
*What excites you the most?
>> i'm easily excited by almost anything nice. mababaw kaligayahan ko eh :-)
*Describe your perfect holiday
>> at the beach with my family.
*Missing anyone?
>> none at the moment.
*Think of one word. What is it?
>> angel.
*How much do you eat?
>> more than someone my size should be eating.
*Do you exercise?
>> i'm too lazy to do it...
*How many times precisely have you
fallen in love?
>> i haven't.
*Do you like the way you look?
>> i'm very much satisfied with what god gave me.
*Think of a person who you think is
hot.
>> goran ivanisevic.
*Are you a good driver?
>> i haven't learned to drive yet.
*Do you wish you could erase your past?
>> nah.
*Favorite ice cream flavor?
>> ube.
*Are you allergic to anything?
>> nope.
*How do you see yourself in 10 years?
>> happily married with kids.
*Ever cried when watching a movie?
>> so many times.
*Apple pie or blueberry cheesecake?
>> apple pie.
*If you could only drink one thing
for the rest of your life?
>> water.
*what are you currently listening?
>> a collection of james horner musical scores.
*What do you think of people around
you?
>> just like me?
*Who is the friend/s you have had the
longest ?
>> high school friends.
*When was the last time you cried?
>> matagal na.
*Why?
>> wala, babaw lang.
*Last song that you sang
>> don't dream it's over.
*Do you like to sing?
>> super.
*Favorite song
>> tuloy pa rin (at the moment ah...)
*If you were given a chance to visit
another country, where would it
be?
>> spain or france
*What do you want to happen right
now?
>> matapos ang nobela.
*What do you want to happen tomorrow?
>> review for an exam.
*What do you want to happen next
week?
>> that the lord will always be there to help me in dealing with difficult situations.
*What do you want to happen next
year?
>> work abroad.
*Do you want to say anything to
anyone?
>> life is beautiful. cheer up!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Are You a Right-Brain Thinker?
Now that you've completed our enlightening quiz, you probably know you’re a right-brain thinker! What if you are motivated by art and love reading the classics, but you're a number cruncher in your day job? If you are feeling out of sorts or dissatisfied with your job, let your right-brain/left-brain knowledge guide you on a new career path. Even if you're totally satisfied in your current job, taking a class could allow you to explore and cultivate a part of your brain you may not use in your career. By working with your natural talents, you'll be likely to succeed at and enjoy work and school at the same time. With the wonderful educational opportunities literally at your fingertips, there's no reason not to be in a happy and fulfilling career. It's possible to be both creative and professional. It might be time to match your brain to your job before more time goes by.
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hmmm... me, right-brained? but i'm right handed. how could that be?
oh well, siguro nga. wait, got this from wikipedia:
"Writing is not as precise an indicator of handedness as it might seem, because many left-handed people write with their right hand but use their left hand for other tasks."
all i can say is...whatever! :-)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
I feel like singing....
Rachel Lampa
I close my eyes,
And even when I'm sleeping
I'm alright,
'Cause you are in my life.
Once upon a time,
I only imagined this
And now you're mine.
Wished for you so hard
Prayed that you'd find me;
Maybe you're here today,
Here to remind me.
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's one that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw you
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe, oh oh...
Everybody said
That I was a fool to think
That we'd connect
But I couldn't get my heart out of my head,
And they just didn't see;
No, they just couldnt know
The feeling that you get,
The places that you go...
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's one that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw you
That when you want something enough,
Then it can't escape your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe.
Never wished for material things;
Never needed wind in my wings.
I never wished for anything but you...oh!
I can't explain it,
Someone just told me,
"Go where your heart is,
You'll never be lonely."
If you believe that dreams come true,
There's one that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw you
That (when you believe) when you want someone enough,
Then they can't escape your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be,
If you believe.
Believe, believe, believe, oh...
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kaasar, kulang na kulang ako sa kilig lately. 'yung mga nagpapakilig, hindi naman kakilig-kilig......kahindik-hindik!!!!! :-)
Monday, March 19, 2007
How Nerdy Am I?
Your Score Summary
Overall, you scored as follows:
36% scored higher (more nerdy),
1% scored the same, and
63% scored lower (less nerdy).
What does this mean?
Your nerdiness is:
Low Ranking Nerd। Definitely a nerd but low on the totem pole of nerds.
no way! me? a nerd? geez. that's kimpossible! = (
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Best Quality (Daw oh!)
In all, there are 15 qualities that help define you when you're at your best. Those are the traits potential employers, friends, and partners look for in you. What makes you unique is your particular distribution of those 15 qualities.
We've found that your particular combination of qualities is rare — only 2 in 10,000 people share the same general mix of traits. Those are great odds if you're trying to show a potential employer, colleague, friend, or date why you're exactly the right person for them.
What Type of Flirt Are You?
Color Test Report
Green/Brown is your second pairing। In relation to what's going on in your life, you're trying to build a sturdier foundation for your life. You hope that doing so will offer you a more comfortable and secure future, when you will receive the respect and recognition you deserve. Among others who take this test, 1.46% chose this color combination in the third and forth positions.
Your third pairing is Yellow/Gray। According to Luscher's theories, this indicates that you're holding back by avoiding conflict. You fear that disagreement might keep you from realizing your goals. While you're willing to get emotionally attached to others, you can be exacting in your standards for a partner and demanding of those close to you. 3.34% of test takers share this combination for the fifth and sixth positions.
Blue/Black is your fourth and final pairing। This means you're rejecting or suppressing your own vulnerability. You feel averse to displays of affection and you can't concentrate. You're in a relationship that makes you feel unhappy, and you don't feel like you can improve it without the cooperation of another person. While you want out and you long for your independence, you don't want to risk losing anything. This leads you to be irritable and wish you could escape the situation altogether. Among other test-takers, 0.25% share this color combination in the seventh and eighth positions.
Changing Lanes
Though each day becomes more difficult, I'm confident that as long as I have truth with me, nothing can ever shake me. Yeah, there may be people who'll try to interfere and may make me feel less of a person but I am not intimidated.
It's the financial aspect of it that's giving me a reason to consider changing lanes. Parati akong walang pera and it's becoming so sickening. Pamasahe pa lang, lugi na ako. Wala pa akong social life nyan ah...
I'm not getting any younger kaya gusto ko talagang maka-ipon. Ayoko ng ganito.
The trip to Korea could open new opportunities for me pero I'm not expecting too much from it. All I need is a chance to work abroad for at least 3 years tapos, I can have my own family na. Basta kailangan makaipon muna ako and then marriage can come in later.
Kapag ready na naman ako financially at emotionally, I know God will give me that man I've been waiting for. I trust in the Lord's will. Maybe I have met this man already or I'm bound to meet him pa lang but right now, while I'm waiting for HIM to come into my life, I know I have to prepare, not just for him but for my future children.
Optimistic ba? Ganyan dapat. Aja fighting!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Grilled Chicken, My Style
Actually, I wasn't planning on changing these things. I just couldn't post kanina kaya ganito. What's wrong with my account ba? It's getting tougher and tougher with each posting I make.
Anyways, my day has been good so far. The greatest achievement I've had: a delicious (daw) grilled chicken that I so painstakingly prepared, from the chicken stuffing to the marinade to the grilling itself. Oh my! Labor of love ito, so it's such a delight to know that my family loved it! I now have a name for it, Grilled Chicken ala Karen! Ay panget! Grilled Chicken, My Style na lang...Wahahaha!!!!
Ah wait, let me post the recipe. Nyahaha!!!
Directions:
Wash whole chicken and let it dry for a few minutes.
Season the chicken cavity with salt and pepper before stuffing it with quartered oranges, chopped parsley, garlic, lemon grass, diced onion, ginger and butter. Sew chicken opening to avoid spilling out of chicken stuffing while grilling.
Mix orange extract, parsley, salt, pepper, melted butter, onion, garlic, ginger, vinegar, cooking oil and maggi savor for the marinade. Baste chicken with marinade. Set aside and let chicken absorb the flavor for a few hours. Finally, it's ready to be grilled. Enjoy!
Odv? Parang totoo! Ahehehe!!!! :-)
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
*****
Set library to shuffle and post the first ten tunes listed, no matter how odd or embarrassing they may be.
1. She Bangs - Ricky Martin (yeah, i do! hehe...)
2. Think You're Gonna Like It - SWV
3. Bitch - Meredith Brooks (hmm...)
4. Bizarre Love Triangle - Frente (wala lang, i like this song naman eh!)
5. Going Under - Evanescence
6. Material Girl - Madonna (me? no way!)
7. Kung Maibabalik Ko Lang - Regine Velasquez (kung maibabalik ang alin?)
8. It's Like That - Mariah Carey
9. Superman Theme (ngek! kasalanan ni allan ito, hihi...)
10. What She'll Look Like - Stephen Speaks
*****
Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
How does the world see me?
- Orbit - Sara Sadler (siguro ibig sabihin nito, magulo ako at paikot-ikot...)
Will I have a happy life?
- 99 - Toto (99% i'll be happy, 1 % na lang kumpleto na, haha...isa na lang talaga ang kulang)
What do my friends really think of me?
- Come Away With Me - Norah Jones
Do people secretly lust after me?
- Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion (because they love me? ay gulo, lust nga eh!)
How can I make myself happy?
- Everything Counts - Depeche Mode
What should I do with my life?
- The Celts - Enya (go to Ireland or Boston i guess...)
Will I ever have children?
- Last Flight Out - Plus One (haha...pahabol na lang? wag naman...)
What is some good advice for me?
- Indifference - Fra Lippo Lippi (hindi ata applicable sa akin)
How will I be remembered?
- Alapaap - Eraserheads
What is my signature dancing song?
- Something Beautiful - Robbie Williams
What do I think my current theme song is?
- I Want It That Way - Backstreet Boys (harhar! bsb love ko sila!!!)
What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
- Ready To Take A Chance Again - Barry Manilow (take a chance again? hindi ko pa nga nasusubukan eh...)
What song will play at my funeral?
- So Young - The Corrs (oy ah, ayoko atang mamatay maaga! knock on wood naman dyan)
What type of men/women do you like?
- Strong Enough - Sheryl Crow (a guy who will stand by my side each moment of my life, naks!)
What is my day going to be like?
- The Animal Song - Savage Garden (may mga mala-hayop na makakasalamuha ako bukas. hahahahaha!!!!!)
*****
Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
1. What's my mood like right now?
- Lost Without Your Love - Bread
2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?
- Zombie - The Cranberries (odv? may animal na may zombie pa! panalo ang araw ko bukas!)
3. What kind of person am I?
- Dangerous - Roxette (i can be...you know!)
4. Am I loved?
- Come Together - The Beatles
5. How can I achieve my highest potential?
- Wag na Wag Mong Sasabihin - Kitchie Nadal
6. What should I do with my life?
- Wherever You Will Go - The Calling (malamang palagi akong magttravel...)
7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?
- Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer (kiss lang okay na. nyahaha!!!)
8. What is my best quality?
- Words - Boyzone (madaldal ako, best quality ko ba 'yun? ngek! hindi ah!)
9. How does my sex life look?
- Tell Me Where It Hurts - MYMP (ano 'yun?)
10. What's the meaning of life?
- Treat Her Like A Lady - Peabo Bryson
11. What do people think of me?
- God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You - 'N Sync
12. Would I make a good catch?
- Wag Mo Nang Itanong - Eraserheads
13. How crazy am I?
- Around the World - ATC
14. Will I have a good life in general?
- Gossip Folks - Missy Elliot (good pero ma-intriga)
15. Can anyone ever really love me?
- Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette (yeah, head over feet pa! yabang va? minsan lang. hehe!!!)
16. Can me and a mate ever be more than friends?
- Sometimes - Britney Spears
17. What's going to happen to me this week?
- Ironic - Alanis Morissette
18. Where will I be a year from now?
- Unwell - Matchbox20
19. What is my biggest wish?
- Ex-Girlfriend - No Doubt
20. What is the love of my life doing at this very moment?
- Pretty Fly - The Offspring
21. How will I die?
- Independent Woman - Destiny's Child
22. What will happen after I die?
- What Matters Most - Dan Fogelberg
23. How do my friends feel about me?
- Beautiful Girl - Jose Mari Chan (beautiful daw oh?! hihi...)
Monday, March 12, 2007
2.Last cigarette smoked:-- ngek! I HATE CIGARETTES!!!!
3.Last beverage drank:-- iced tea
4. Last movie watched:-- 300 - waaaaah!!! gory grabe!!!
5. Last phone call I answered:-- can't remember na eh...
6. Last song played:-- don't dream it's over
7. Last bath taken:-- kaninang umaga
8. Last time you cried:-- kagabi, emote emote...
9. Last thing you ate:-- watermelon
Have you ever:
1. Have you ever dated a bestfriend?-- nope
2. Have you ever skinny dipped?-- nope
3. Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it?-- nope!
4. Have you ever lost someone you loved?-- yes...
5. Have you ever been in a fight?-- yes...
6. Have you ever been drunk and threw up?-- never pa, kasi hindi talaga ako umiinom. ewan, hindi ako makalunok kahit patak na alcohol lang. nyahaha!!! weird ko dv?
7. Have you ever ran away?-- i guess in the past, yes...
8. Have you ever wanted someone you thought you couldn't have then found out they liked you?!-- so many times in the past din, nalalaman ko na lang kapag wala nang contact. oh well, ibig sabihin, we weren't meant to be in the first place.
3 things you want to do before you die:
1. have any of my scripts adapted into a full-length feature film
2. travel and (possibly) work abroad
3. be with the man who will make me a happy wife. cheesy ko 'noh?!
your family calls you°-- karen
your friends call you-- karen, kaye, kar, ren
favorite number/s:-- 7, 27, 5
°last thing you did before this°-- turned the tv set off
Sunday, March 11, 2007
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp,Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...
Opening Credits:* It Must Have Been Love – Roxette >> How can it be over when it hasn’t even begun?
Waking Up:* Blue Angels – Pras Michel >> I see angels every morning, their color is blue. Nyahaha!!!
First Day At School:* Young and Proud - Ace of Base >> Truly!
Falling In Love:* Take My Breath Away - Jessica Simpson >> Well, well, oh well...
Fight Song:* Feel For Your Love – Air Supply >> I’d do anything just to get a feel of your love. Haha. Mushy!
Breaking Up:* Lady in Red – Chris De Burgh >> I should be wearing red when I break up with someone…war ito! Hehe…
Prom:* We the people – Air Supply >> We the people…at the prom?
Life:* Sleeping Child – Michael Learns to Rock >> Antukin nga ako. Maliit ako kaya lagi ako napagkakamalang bata. Aba! Tama!!!!
Mental Breakdown:* Under the Bridge – Red Hot Chili Peppers >> Sa ilalim ng tulay ako magkaka-mental breakdown. Aja, fighting!!!! Nyihihihi!!!
Driving:* Send Me An Angel – Scorpions >> I need an angel to help me through the rough roads of life. Odv?
Flashback:* Return to Innocence – Enigma >> Florecita?! Inocente De Ti! Nyahaha!!
Wedding:* Waitin’ Here – The Corrs >> Mukhang I’ll forever be waiting ah. Hmmm…
Birth of Child:* Fighter – Christina Aguilera >> Childbirth…mahirap. Kailangang lumaban.
Final Battle:* No Rain – Blind Melon >> Pero gusto ko ang ulan eh
Death Scene:* Don’t Dream It’s Over – Sixpence None the Richer >> it ain’t over till it’s done!
Funeral Song:* Sulat – Moonstar 88 >> Uhm, ewan ko ba!
Credits:* Grow Old With You – Adam Sandler >> How much I love this song! Wedding singer rocks!
Monday, March 05, 2007
Feels like everyone's happy for me. Alam nila kasi na matagal ko nang gustong magpunta ng Korea. Matutupad na, wala lang sanang magpasaway, naketch!
Anyways, iba-iba ang reaksyon ng mga tao kapag nalalaman nilang aalis ako. 'Yung iba ang feeling hindi na ako babalik. May iba naman may prediction na agad. Magkakaroon na raw ako ng Korean fafa pagpunta ko run. Nyahaha!!! Kung kamukha ni Jo In-Sung...Aba, bakit hindi?!!! Haha!
Hay naku, Come what may...Ayokong mag-isip ng ganyan. I don't want to expect kumbaga. Basta, kung mangyayari, mangyayari. Sa ngayon, standby lang ako. Work, work, work muna!!!!
Ay nga pala, I saw him kanina. Yes, him...as in, HIM :-)
He greeted me nung magkasalubong kami sa may TOC. Magalang pa rin naman, medyo hindi na gaanong dinig 'yung, "po" sa "hi, po" niya, ni fairness. Nililimit niya ata sadya. Hihi. Nag-assume na naman daw va ako? Hihi!!!!Naka-smile siya kanina. Aba, eh ako syempre smile din ever! Haha.
Honestly, hindi ko na siya gaano naiisip lately. Siguro dahil puro medical check-up nina Mommy at Daddy ang inasikaso ko these past couple of weeks. Tapos ito nga, dumagdag din ang Korean trip kaya talagang practically, no time to think about romance. Romance daw oh?! Hihi!!!
I still like him. Masaya ako pag naryan siya. Pero minsan naiisip ko, sana makakita na ako ng ibang gugustuhin para naman mag-move on na ako. Wala, nasasayang lang kasi ang time ko sa ganito. Tumatanda ako na puro pa-tweetums. Gusto kong magkaroon ng kulay ang lovelife ko. 'Yun na lang ang kulang eh. Romantic love. Waaaah!!!
Sabagay, takot pala ako...Ay, wag na nga lang! Ayoko pala. Ang gulo talaga ng utak ko! Nyahaha!!!!
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Regine Velasquez
Sabihin ko kaya sayo
Damdamin na itinatago
Paano aking kaibigan
Lihim ay katotohanan
Tanging mahal sa puso ko'y ikaw lamang
Sabihin mong pag-ibig kong minimithi, inaasam
Kailan pa ba maririnig ito sinta
Kung sana'y makapiling ka
Habang buhay aking sinta
Pagtingin sayo'y nagbago
Pagtibok ng aking puso
Sana'y iyong malaman
Ikaw at ikaw lamang
Tanging mahal sa puso ko'y ikaw lamang
Sabihin mong pag-ibig kong minimithi o inaasam
Kailan pa ba maririnig ito sinta
Kung sana'y makapiling ka
Habang buhay aking sinta
Tanging mahal
Friday, March 02, 2007
Thursday, March 01, 2007
1. are you missing someone right now?= yes
2. are you happy?= yes
3. are you talking to anyone right now?= no
4. are you bored?= yes
5. are you german?= nope
6. are you irish?= wish ko lang…
7. are you chinese?= I have Chinese blood :)
8. are you asian?= yes
9. are your parents still married?= YES!!!!!!
10. do you like someone right now?= still him, siya lang talaga :)
TEN FAVORITES.
1. televison show:= blf, 7th heaven
2. flower:= rose and sunflower
3. colors:= yellow and purple
4. sport:= badminton, tennis
5. mall:= sm lang…
6. music:= anything that’s nice to listen to…
7. food:= kahit ano basta hindi matamis, waaaah!!!
8. season:= summer
9. animal:= dogs and cats :)
10. subject := physics, history, english (konti)
TEN FACTS.
1. hometown:= supernova
2. hair color:= dark brown
3.perfume:= wala pero since may namimigay ng perfume, go!
4. hair style:= ay ewan ko sa buhok ko, pasaway!
5. eye color:= dark brown
6. shoe size:= five
7. mood:= senti? Hehe…
8. skin color:= in the mddle
9. available?:= ahehe…kelangan pa bang i-memorize ‘yan?!
10. lefty/righty:= righty
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love?= I don’t think so
2. do you believe in love?= of course
3. why did your last relationship fail?= what are 'ya talkin' about?
4. have you ever been heartbroken?= guess...yes
5. have you ever broken someone'sheart?= yes...maybe
6. have you ever fallen for one of your best friends?= nope
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them?= why should I tell him? What if he doesn't like me back?
8. are you afraid of commitment?= I guess it’s a yes
9. has someone ever kissed your hand?= yes :(
10. have you ever had a secret admirer?= yes
TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or lust:= love
2. hard liquor or beer:= wala
3. night or day:= both
4. one night stands or relationships:= relationships
5. television or internet:= internet
6. pepsi or coke:= coke
7. wild night out or romantic night in:= romantic
8. colored pictures or black and whitepictures:= both
9. phone or in person:= in person
10. friendster or myspace:= myspace
TEN HAVE Y0U EVER's.
1. have you ever been caught sneakingout?= haha, hindi pa.
2. have you ever kissed s0meone youdon't love?= nope
3. have you ever done something youregret?= yes
4. have you ever bungee jumped?= wish ko lang…
5. have you ever been on a house boat?= wish ko rin ‘yan!
6. have you ever finished an entirejaw breaker?= nope
7. have you ever wanted someone sobadly it hurts?= uhm…ewan
9. have you ever danced in the rain?= haha! When I was younger…
10. have you ever had a hang over?= nope
Q: whose bed did you sleep in lastnight?>>> mine
Q: most recent movie that you watched?>>> flushed away
Q: name one thing that you do everyday?>>> work, surf the net
Q: what's the color of your bedroomwalls?>>> pink
Q: how much cash do you have on youright now?>>> hihi…secret!
Q: what is your favorite part of thechicken?>>> wing
Q: what's your favorite sport?>>> badminton.
Q: i can't wait till...?>>> april 7!!!!
Q: when was the last time you saw yourmom?>>> kani-kanina lang…
Q: what did you have for dinner lastnight?>>> chicken, delivery from chowking
Q: look to your left. What's there??>>> sofa
Q: whats the last piece of clothingyou borrowed from someone?>>> t-shirt from edna
Q: what website(s) do you visit themost?>>> myspace, friendster, google, wikipedia
Q: do you have plants in your room?>>> nope
Q: does anything hurt on your bodyright now?>>> wala naman…
Q: what city was your last taxicabride in?>>> qc to caloocan
Q: recent time you were really upset?>>> last tuesday
Q: would you have a problem if yourfriend went after your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend?>>> strange and awkward
_______Last_______
1. Person you saw:>>> my dad
2. Talk on the phone with:>>> tita cristy
3. You Hugged:>>> my teddy bear tony
4. Hugged you:>>> wala
5: You kissed:>>> my love in my oh-so-vivid dream! Nyahaha!!!
6: Kissed you:>>> my love nga…sa panaginip nga lang! Bwahaha!!!
7. YM:>>> that greek guy na ewan ko ba! Hmp!
_______Today________
1. What are you doing now:>>> type type type
2. What will you be doing tonight:>>> sleep
3. What are you wearing?>>> pantulog
4. What did you eat for lunch?>>> tokwa at fried rice
________Tomorrow________
1. Is:>>> Friday, yey!!!
2. Got any plans:>>> badminton ako tom
3. Goal:>>> finish my job early
4. Dislikes about tomorrow:>>> wala naman
Si Daddy lang ang problem namin ngayon. Lumabas kasi sa test na may tendency siyang magka-diabetes. His glucose count exceeded the normal range of 6. Diet si Papsikel! Medyo mukhang mahihirapan kami rito kasi talaga namang maganang kumain si Daddy. I don't think one cup of rice per meal is enough for him...Pero naku, if I don't see it possible, how can he convince himself that it is? Maybe we should all help in psyching himself up. Kaya mo 'yan, Daddy!
The doctor also recommended that Daddy undergo prostate test. My gah, muntik nang mahimatay si Daddy nang sabihin ko na sa puwet padadaanin ang pag-check sa prostate niya. I'll be with him when they do that test on him this Saturday. Moral support kumbaga. Again...Kaya mo 'yan, Daddy! Hihi!
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
An incident happened this afternoon, as in, impyerno! It's the Family First scam and I almost fell into their deceitful way of luring "potential" customers.
My mother and I had just gone from FEU Hospital for a follow up check-up and before going home, we dropped by SM Fairview to withdraw (sana) money from the ATM. As we were walking our way to the nearest Equitable PCI ATM Machine, a guy (i think he's gay) approached us, saying that we were being given a free umbrella, etc... I didn't really care but my mom was easily persuaded. Then and there, I was asked to sign an info sheet and afterwards, the gay man asked me to show him my credit card. No problem there.
We were then convinced to proceed to their office at the 2nd floor for a small talk. Of course, since we were being given a "free" umbrella, it wasn't so courteous of us if we refused him. Inside the office, I was informed that I was going to have a 45 minute talk with a representative who was about to orient me of what the company is about. Naturally, I started showing resentment.
First of all, it was a waste of my time. We only wanted to withdraw and planned to go home quickly because my brother was waiting for us. As the representative talked and talked endlessly of something that seemed to ultimately be one and the same, and nonsensical, I tried to explain to her that I wasn't prepared for such long conversation. My mother has been waiting for me, we've just gone from a hospital, practically every reason in the entire universe but Carmela, the representative refused to let me go. She even made me feel bad by saying, "If you were in my shoes, you wouldn't want to be treated this way, right?" I answered, "No, you don’t get the point. It has nothing to do with you, nothing to do with what you are trying to tell me, it's just that, I do not have the luxury of time to be doing this, that I was just forced into this..." The girl got a little irritated. But she continued, "Let me just finish this."
So there, I wasn't feeling okay na, she insisted pa rin. She talked again, in circles talaga. She kept going back to things like "savings, income, priorities, etc." I was like, "Hey, we're going nowhere," My mom, who's sick is waiting for me, why can't she just go straight to the point?
I think I tried at least 8 times to cut her, to ask her to have mercy on me and let me go. She won't convince me at all into doing business with them if that’s what she wanted. But she still insisted. Sobrang sama ng loob ko, maiiyak na ako talaga pero parang walang puso at awa, she still talked.
And then, there's a woman, a big, scary-looking chunky woman who came up to me and said, "Patapusin lang natin siya, Ma'am." My God, it's like the people there at Family First were all coercing me. Parang may bouncer na naka-ready to do the dirty work of forcing us to stay out of fear.
Ano ba 'yun? Tama ba yun? I was becoming less and less patient. Carmela was beginning to get nasty and para bang, ako pa ang masamang tao sa aming dalawa when in fact, I returned to her the same statement she gave me. What could she have done if she were in my shoes? Ako na naman ang tinuro niya, patapusin ko raw siya. Kung ibang tao raw yung kumausap sa akin, na-high blood na sa akin.
Oh my...the nerve of that woman. I told her that prior to that, I begged off na, but they said it was going to be just 45 minutes, that's maximum. She was like, "Who told you that? That's not an accurate information." I was like...So how long pa ba before she gets to the point? She couldn't tell me. I was with her for over an hour na. Gabi na, oh Lord. Sabi ko, "Can I just go home? I really have other things to do, I’m not interested." Sabi niya, there are formal ways of leaving the room. Tapos yun nga, she continued to talk, convincing me to choose a bank daw for savings purposes. Sabi ko, I don't like saving up money sa bank. Sabi niya, “Naku, dapat meron.”
Ang kulit niya, sabi ko, ayaw ko nga, mas magaling pa siya sa akin. Tapos sinabi na nga niya na they have something like a 300k - 600k plan na if you give a certain amount for three to 6 years, you'll have that much savings sa bank. I said, no, no matter what they do, I won't settle with them. Ang kulit pa rin ni Carmela. Halatang asar na siya sa akin, asar din ako sa kanya, walang intindi! Kulit!
Finally, my mom went wild and crazy na. She got into the room and when I saw her, I went hysterical na rin. Siguro people inside the room were curious. Hay naku, I didn't care if looked like someone without proper breeding. Basta, I wanted to leave that office instantly. I told my mom, get rid of the umbrella and the damn bag. Sinauli ni mommy and then, I frantically said, "You are all giving me a trauma! Ipapahuli ko kayo. Bawal ang ginagawa nyo!"
They couldn't do anything. Umalis na kami eh.
I read on the internet so many complaints about Family First. I hate their marketing strategy. I mean, if they really want customers, genuine customers, they should just post bulletins and be a little more creative into advertising their firm. Eh with what they're doing, seems like gusto lang nilang manloko. I think this is true since may mga nagreklamo dahil pinapapirma sila pwersahan sa contract bago sila pinapayagang lumabas. I'm lucky I didn't sign any damn contract pero just to be sure, pina-block ko na rin ang credit card ko. I sought for another one in replacement of the blocked card.
Hay, naiirita pa rin ako...the authorities need to do something about it. Bakit ba pinapayagan ng SM ang ganitong garapalang panloloko sa premises nila? Tospek talaga!!!!
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
» Your IQ score is 142. According to Lewis Terman, originator of the concept of the intelligence quotient, your score classifies you as exhibiting genius or near-genius intelligence. But you always knew that, deep down, didn’t you?
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
makulit?- sobra!!!!!
masayahin?- parang adik daw ako pag masaya! :-)
senti?- right now, i'm kinda feeling senti...
caring?- sabi nila :-)
mapagkunwari?- nope…kasi sa akin, what you see is what you get!
sosyal?- jologs ako eh!
bastos?- hindi masyado…
matalino?- hindi eh, siguro smart, ay, pa-smart lang pala...
brat?- sometimes
pranka?- minsan mahirap maging ganun. baka makasakit ako ng damdamin eh.
sakitin?- nope
funny?- mukha ata akong clown kaya natatawa friends ko sa akin :-(
corny?- medyo...
movie-buff?- yez!!!
rakista?- nope
punkista?- nope
friendly?- of course
singer?- ehem…Britney Spears and Jessa Zaragoza combined. Bopek eto! Hihi!
dancer?- pwedeng magsayaw, keri naman pero super hina memory ko sa dance steps.
artist?- meaning, someone who draws or paints o yung artista as in actor actress? - i draw and paint (a little) pero yung artista? ngek! hindi ako bagay dun. haha! baka magsara ang lahat ng mga sinehan sa akin! hihi...
matangkad?- susko! Pandakekak ako!
panget magsulat?- penmanship? panget ang sulat ko, aminado ako!
haha laki ulo?- ulo ko? literal ba ito o figurative? maliit sa parehong aspeto...
sensitive?- yeah
risk taker?- duwag ako eh...
matakaw?- super!!!
demure?- hindi!!!!
studious?- hindi rin!!!
laid back?- yeah, kinda…
outgoing?- yeah!!!
kj?- minsan! Hihi!
rule breaker?- hindi!!!!
init ulo?- minsan!
bunso?- yup!
goth?- haha…gusto ko ata yun! Hihi!
maarte?- hindi
alcoholic?- nope
musiclover?- of course
spoiled?- nope
sweet?- yeah
sipsip?- nope
obsessive?- nope
conservative?- guilty!
animal lover?- super!!!
mall goer?- nah!!!
gamer?- nope!!!
singkit?- yeaaaaaaaaah!!!!
kulot?- hindi!
mapili?- ako yun, mapili sobra!!!
teachers pet?- nope
iyakin?- actually
antukin?- minsan
masaya kasama?- lagi!
nanlilibre?- minsan lang, hehe
pasaway?- never!
stupid?- madalas ata!
in love?- cguro..... hi po! excuse me po! :-)
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Zandro
I remember it so well. It was in 1992. I was 13, a high school freshman. He was 16, a high school senior. I remember how he looked like then. Small, chinky-eyed, fair skinned with a cute smile… I adored everything about him, though I never got to talk to him. Ah, I did but let me elaborate on a few more details before I proceed to that encounter.
The first time I ever saw him…honestly, I can’t recall. My liking didn’t spring from any physical attraction although later on, I realized he actually had a pretty face to begin with. Haha. But then, I liked him not because of his pretty face. I admired him because he was different.
Studying in a public school, where any place within the vicinity could serve as a classroom for students, the sort of classroom for his senior section was literally placed behind the slightly elevated room us, the freshmen were occupying. Anyway, I would always peek into their class because it was much easier to peep into them than to focus my attention to our teacher whose voice I barely heard. After a while, I noticed this guy who always, I mean, always listened attentively to the teacher and manifested great enthusiasm in the discussion each and every time. That was far from what I was doing really, I had a very short attention span. I guess I still do up to now. Haha.
Okay, to continue with my story, this guy caught my attention. I couldn’t tell how he looked like from afar. Haha. But I did have a friend who knew him instantly as soon as I pinpointed him. His name, my friend said was Zandro. At that time, he was the only guy I ever knew with that name. I guess, until now he’s the only one…
So everyday, I was content with observing his every gesture, his every movement…and I had fun watching him. He was always reading and studying even when his friends were outside, bullying other students. He had a circle of friends but he wasn’t like anyone of them. He was always quiet and reserved. Made me think, how on earth did his friends accept him in their club in the first place? Then I realized, it wasn’t hard to like a man like him.
Zandro always had a notebook and a book with him. During recess, I'd find him reading in one corner while his friends ate like mad dogs. Then I found out something which made me like him even more. My friend who knew him because her brother was Zandro’s close friend and classmate told me about his family's humble background.
The guy comes from a poor family and to help in the livelihood, Zandro worked in the afternoon selling fish and vegetables in the wet market. He was there to help his mother. That was probably the reason why I often saw him skip meals. Poor boy but his mother was so lucky to have him indeed!
My friend, after a few months informed me that her brother mentioned Zandro about me. I said, “Why did you let him know of me?” My friend only smiled, “I’ll introduce you to him.” I angrily resisted, “No!”
Things happened too fast. Next thing I knew, I was standing in front of the guy I liked so much. Yes, it was Zandro who was placed in front of me. He was smiling the whole time. Maybe he knew about my “infatuation” for him. I really wouldn’t know what was playing in his mind then. I smiled then he said something like, “Hi, nice to meet you.” I thought I was going to die. Goodness! That was it, then I had to go because my mother was waiting for me outside. I bid him goodbye. In my head, I thought, 'Ah there will be other chances. I’ll meet him again. At least he knew me already.'
Unfortunately, it would be the last time I’d ever see him. A few days later, my family unexpectedly moved to a new house in Caloocan. The days went on but I couldn’t stop crying. There were so many questions lingering in my head at that time. Why did it have to end that way? I felt as if, there was no closure to our story that merely started when we got introduced to one another. If I didn’t leave, probably something could have worked out.
I cried and cried and cried until my eyes got sore. I even had a theme song for him. At that time, Donna Cruz’ version of “Boy” was a huge hit on the airwaves. I’d always listen to it every single day. Whenever I did, I always cried.
Today, Zandro is just part of a distant memory. He’s the first guy I ever liked, that’s a fact. I liked him because he was a good son, a good student and a good man. I don’t know where he is now. The last I heard of him, around ’95, he was a working student who enrolled in a vocational school. You see, he really had a will to survive.
I feel nostalgic because I remember my youth through him. I was very innocent. Somehow a part of me is still young and innocent no matter how old I get. I can’t totally say that I’ve grown to be a good person. I can only promise that I have tried to be a good daughter to my parents, a good sister to my brother and a good friend to my peers…Something that I have patterned after Zandro’s good example.
I miss the guy.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Love them both
They weren't that way before. My parents have been together over the past 30 years, and with all honesty, nothing ever shook their relationship. They aren't the romantic couple to begin with, so I never really expected too much from them. But they have always been a happy couple…Until lately, when my mother started to get jealous of a female helper who lived in our house.
I don't know what to feel or how to react. I do understand them both. My mother could have felt a little threatened that another woman was doing the household chores that she's been used to doing all these years. My father, for his part was getting pissed that his every action was being subject to suspicion by mommy. The household helper had already gone, but the problem seems to go on endlessly. Mommy, although not directly accusing my father, most of the time burdens him with jokes that link him to the poor girl. Dad doesn't find humor in it though. It's not funny.
Last night, my father came home drunk. I overheard him argue with my mother. I wanted to butt in, stop them from arguing but I guess there was no sense in doing it. He was drunk after all. He wouldn't listen. I looked at my mother, sort of telling her not to say anything anymore to prevent any more serious fights.
This morning when I woke up, they weren't speaking with each other. My father was so cold and stoic. It was so much unlike him. He's always been the joker among us. I guess I got my happy disposition from him, even the love for singing and drawing. So many good things about my father that I can't totally ignore, even if, let's say I found out he's having an affair with another woman.
He was 22 years old when he ran away from home to look for better prospects in the city. For quite some time, he was homeless. My father would narrate how his own father denied him a chance to go to college so he rebelled by running away. In the city, he worked as a janitor. There he met my mother and when my mother's father would beat her up (my maternal grandfather constantly beat up my poor mother which probably played a part into what she has become, sensitive at times), my father came to her rescue. They eloped. Not too long, they got married, and my father, with the help of my mother's siblings enrolled him in a vocational school. Soon after, my father became a mechanic and then, a car painter. That's where we got our money from. Who would have thought we'd have good education with the salary he got?
I'm not eliminating the possibility that he might have another woman. But I haven't seen one. Honestly, I don't feel like there's anyone. His whole life has been devoted to us. He comes home on time, his weekends are spent with us. If he drinks, he does so because he loves to sing karaoke. Then he comes back. He sleeps on the same bed as mom. The last time, mom got sick, he took care of her. I know how much he loves mom. That's why I can't fathom why mommy feels threatened.
But then, of course I can't blame my mother. At her age of 67, she could be feeling a little insecure especially knowing there was a younger woman in the household.
My brother and I, we both tell her to trust dad. We've been through the hardest times. We were so poor then but we never fell apart. I can't understand why this whole suspicion of another girl can break us apart. There were more important issues that came before, and we were able to weather them.
Mom is quiet now. This time though, she's sweeter to dad. I really wish things will be the same again, that things will get better. I can't be happy knowing that they're not. I love them both.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Monday, February 05, 2007
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Leo Fever
Leo fever has hit me once again. After watching his performance in the The Departed, I've grown to like him even better. I honestly appreciate him more now than I ever did during his "titanic" superstardom days. Yeah, Leo's such a prolific actor! A rarity among young actors today. He's a natural. I guess I have to watch Titanic again to satiate my Leo craving. Heavenly Leo!!!
Saturday, February 03, 2007
A Noble Idea for a Novel
"Lying on a comfortable bed in a dark hospital room, my grandfather would have detested being secluded in a place like this. Had he only the strength to have opposed his grandson from doing so, he wouldn’t be found here. Having fought in the battle of the Pacific Islands during the Second World War, Grandpa Pops, as everyone fondly called him, always thought of himself unbreakable. Surely, he proved everyone right. The old man hardly got sick. The only time he ever did some thirty years ago, was marked with much resistance. Grandpa Pops deliberately left the hospital room he was checked in. Later when asked why he ran away, he complained how the sight and smell of the hospital made him even sicker.
I can still remember that first and only day I ever saw him weak. I was only a boy then, living in the custody of my paternal relatives. Grandpa Pops passed out as we were tilling the small chunk of land around a white painted wooden house on a hot and humid Saturday afternoon in Houston, Texas. The doctors’ verdict, it was a sudden attack of vertigo. The older one gets, the more prone they become to suffering such illness. But other than that, he never had any life-threatening disease that could have prevented him from being the usual agile and strong man he’s always been. That was when I started to believe that my grandfather was indeed invincible."
Thursday, February 01, 2007
hmmm....some are true, some aren't. a few...i'll find out when i get married. hihi!
.:CANCER:. The Cutie MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ### appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
.:PISCES:. The Piece of ass Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high ### appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.
.:CAPRICORN:. The passionate Lover Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget. Smart.
.:TAURUS:. The Tramp Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships.=] Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as ........ Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to #### with. Are the most sexiest people on earth!
.:SAGITTARIUS:. The Sexy one Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? Not the kind of person you wanna with you might end up crying.
.:AQUARIUS:. Does it in the water Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. Amazing in bed, THE BEST LOVERS BETTER THAN EVERYONE!
.:SCORPIO:. The sex addict Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic.
.:LIBRA:. The lame lover Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person you wanna #### with... u might end up crying... the most irresistible. 9
.:ARIES:. The Liar Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to #### with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships.=) Addictive. Loud. best in bed.