He who excites me with his every step. He who makes my heart leap with each glance...isn't who the Lord wants for me, so I'm giving up. He who delights me is somebody else' angel and I'm giving up on my wish.

I guess that maybe when God answers prayers, he does it in huge, colossal ways but when he doesn't grant one, he answers us in painful, challenging ways. It's a big NO for the man I have been wishing for all this time. I surrender.

Maybe I'll find another one who fits my idea of a good partner and then I'll pray that it's him. If not...I'll know for sure. Then I'll hope once again because I trust that God will give me someone I rightfully deserve.