Pa-tweetums

I must be infatuated…again. But honestly, I wish I wasn't. It would have been better if I never had any of these romantic notions toward someone of the opposite sex, kasi it’s always been like a cycle. I get attracted to someone (usually from a distance), then I get too excited…with all the kilig, pa-cute, etc. My goodness! I’m soooo over that. I should be! I'm way too old for a "teeny-bopperish" infatuation.

Last week, I confided in my officemate friend about this unusual feeling in me that no matter how cute a guy is, no matter how hard he tries to “make pa-cute,” I don’t get it anymore. Then my officemate described me as someone who’s near the stage of frigidness. Frigid?! Okay, maybe…but no! Of course not.

Siguro sawa na lang talaga ako sa pagpapa-tweetums coz that was ALL I've been doing my entire life that now I'm starting to realize, I wasted my time and youth thinking and dreaming of things that never really existed, probably just in my head. Yun bang, you get too excited by the prospect of love knocking on your door pero it’s just a possibility. You create a world where you're happy, even if the person doesn't know you exist. All these things are merely part of an imagination, an illusion of what might or what could happen...In short, there isn't anything tangible. Just tangible hysteria for nothing really important.

Sure, I want to love. I want to fall hopelessly in love. Something that’s worth a lifetime coz I’m a certified hopeless romantic. But geez…I want to love and be loved back. I need that love to be reciprocated. Hindi yung ako lang ang nagmamahal. Or maybe, feeling ko lang nagmamahal na nga ako when the truth is, it's petty infatuation.

I’ve probably been deceiving myself all these years. Maybe, I’ve been hiding my real self. Sometimes, I’m guilty of denying my own feelings just to protect myself from being hurt. Maybe it’s time that I learn a lesson or two on loving and being loved. In that I mean, I should be more realistic, more sociable and less afraid to take a gamble at love.

Why am I saying all these? It’s all because I’m beginning to get myself entangled into another cycle of pa-tweetums kind of liking someone which I ultimately want to end from this point on.

Only He Knows....

Jesus, Take the Wheel
Carrie Underwood


She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It's been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop

She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

Talavera Lovin'

Speaking of work, here's a picture of me and a few of my officemates when we were in Talavera, Nueva Ecija last Tuesday night. Geez...I really enjoyed that (laugh)trip!

To quit or not to quit

The idea of leaving my current job has been flirting in my head for several months now. Honestly, I love my work. I enjoy it, really. And though there have been occurrences in the past (inevitably I'd still have if I don't get rid of it now) that my job almost entirely killed a healthy, happy weekend break...I've never really gone as far as linger about quitting just because of that. The only reason for such decision is the financial aspect of my work. Three years and counting, yet there's been no significant monetary progress.

I'm 29 now and I want a sense of financial security. I need to be realistic because one day I'd either get to have my own family and help my husband feed our kids or I'd end up living alone, worse not having enough of anything to feed myself alone.

I got a job offer last week from a potential employer (call center) but I haven't signed a contract yet, which is a good thing since it will give me more time to contemplate on things. Most people are telling me not to. I don't know. I feel as if I'm lost, like I'm at the crossroads of my life trying to figure out what life I should be leading. I don't know where to go. Should I stay with my current company which financially doesn't equate the amount of dedication I have for my work or should I move on to greener pastures not minding if the work hours would completely trouble my health?

Your Birth Month is May

Unique and creative, you seek your own path in life. You love change and are able to adapt to any situation. Your soul reflects: Sweetness, joy, and a complete life. Your gemstone: Emerald Your flower: Lily of the Valley Your colors: Yellow, red, and green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Dog Quiz

Labrador If you're a dog, you'll be a Labrador! You care too much about people to actually hurt someone, you may feel in your mind that you would like to, but you just care too much about people. Go to Romantic Love Quiz to do more Quizzes!

Are You a Vain Girl?

You Are a Down to Earth Doll

You're good looking and you realize that looks matter And you also know that it's your inside that really shines You do your best to look like an A-lister But you devote most of your time to being a well rounded hottie

Are You a Vain Girl?

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

You are Totally Realistic

"Romance" means you're about to roll your eyes Seriously, you can do without the sap or drama Save it for someone who has nothing really going on in their relationship For you, love is real - and easily integrated into your life You don't need candles, flowers, or chocolates to know he's the one Just some stimulating conversation... and maybe a great smile.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

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nah, i don't agree. i'm actually more on the romantic side. hehe

Does he like me?

Distant Prospect Sorry to burst your bubble of hope, girl. It appears that he does not seem to know you and thus, it is unlikely that he will like you. Therefore, love is a Distant Prospect. Don’t despair, because there are so many other guys out there and there might be one interested in you! Remember to take a closer look around you and you might just find one unexpectedly! Go to Romantic Love Quiz to do more Quizzes!

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now this one, i totally understand...

What Color Girl Are You?

You Are A Blue Girl

Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you. You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict. If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well. You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

What Color Girl Are You?

Are you in love?

Love Target He/She is someone whom you think of regularly and the signs are there that you're falling in love. It is up to you to take it or leave it as you're still unsure of your feelings as this stage. In the meantime, he/she is a Love Target for you. Go and find out about what he/she thinks of you and go on from there. For all you know, a budding love might be on the way... Go to Romantic Love Quiz to do more Quizzes!

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erm...really now?!

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Feeling

You are: Able to make everyone feel comfortable and special Someone with a large social circle from all walks of life Supportive, encouraging, and truly happy when people around you succeed A great leader who gains loyalty and respect easily

What's Your Personality Cluster?

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman 80% Green Lantern 70% Wonder Woman 65% The Flash 65% Spider-Man 65% Supergirl 60% Hulk 60% Robin 50% Iron Man 45% Catwoman 30% Batman 10%

You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...

Click here to create your own painting.

Your personality analysis based on this drawing:You are a suspicious person and have some paranoid tendencies.You have an evasive attitude in social relations.You are defensive.You deny your needs and can be passive aggressive.

http://www.bored.com/drawthings/save.php?id=1960227

A Prayer

Father Almighty, if only I could make the situation better, if only I could prevent things from falling apart. At this point, the best that I can do is to rest everything upon you. Please help us overcome all these. Ease out the anger, help us forget the pain and allow love to rule in our hearts.


May You bless us with prosperity, good health and the power to win all our battles in the coming year. All this we ask in Jesus' name. Amen.

Just a Thought

People are faced daily with complicated situations and a few times far complicated options which in turn lead us to the right path, or at least when we believe we have chosen the right one.

Watching a copy of “The Devil Wears Prada” made me ponder on a few unexplored facts in life. Sure, my fashion sense is gravely dull and I do admit to being unaware of it for God knows how long a time. But the film screams out loud far more important concerns in life than just a peek into the glamorous world of fashion.

Andrea Sachs (Anne Hathaway) is a fresh journalism grad who could well be described as a fashion-unconscious by the conscious, tries her luck at applying as co-assistant for Runway magazine’s editor-in-chief Miranda Priestly (Meryl Streep). With a positive and determined attitude, Andy gets the post to the surprise of everyone.

Miranda, with her ever modulated voice and piercing sarcasm never fails to terrorize those around her including the newly-hired assistant Andrea. Each day becomes more delirious for her though. Calls from her boss in the middle of a dinner with her father or at the verge of a break-up with her boyfriend add up to the impossibility of the poor girl’s daily existence and to some extent Andrea seems to no longer have control of her own life.

In the end, Andrea realizes that living a life outside of her own was not what she had wanted. The fancy clothes and the fancy people were not and will nowhere be within her circle. Andrea finally knew the right thing to do and that was far more important than merely pleasing an unpredictable boss at the expense of displeasing everyone who cares for her.

Choices are made, not merely accepted as they come. We can choose to be beautiful or ugly, stylish or plain. Or we can be in the middle or a range beyond. Ultimately, it is what we decide to be, the path we choose to lead that matters, and how we stand up for it and enjoy the journey.

Lost and Found

Could this be my lucky day? Okay. First of all, since technically it's already Saturday, when I say "this day" I'm referring to yesterday, Friday. But of course, having just gotten back home, it feels only a few moments ago.

The surprise of my life, the reason why I'm so ecstatic this late time of the evening (or is it day?) and the single force that drives me into writing crappy proclamations of love in this blog has staged an apparition. Yes! He emerged out of the deepest dungeons of oblivion.

Suddenly, my heart palpitated in severe motion. My blood rushed through my veins like hot lava streaming down a volcano. That same feeling which I thought would have been gone by the time I see him again was never lost after all.

I do not wish to elaborate how, when and where I found him again. All those are insignificant to what I'm feeling now. Heck, I can't even describe what it is that really drives me nuts now. Is it because I really really like him? Or is it merely nostalgia? I've got no idea. And I do not wish to know either...

But then, let me just be all too excited now with that one great moment in my life. A view of gods and goddesses won't hurt at all. Let me let this feeling cease first, then I can move on and completely forget about this madness which at the very thought of it is proof enough of how pathetic my life has been all this time. Ay, poor me!

My Ken

Ken, Ken, Oh Ken...Think I'm in love...(again?!) But why not? He's just the cutest thing on earth. I heart him!

Batanes

If I were to choose a favorite place to travel to, I’d definitely pick Batanes. I fell in love with it ever since I got to watch a feature on it in one local show a couple of years ago. Since then, I began to cultivate a dream of one day living and experiencing life in arguably one of the most beautiful places this side of the planet.

Next month, the film Batanes will premiere in local cinemas. This early, I cannot contain my excitement and eagerness of seeing this film. Hopefully, more people will be able to watch it and be thankful that God has showered us with such natural wonder.

I’ve seen the trailer and even the musical score gives me goosebumps. Its lead stars Ken Zhu and Iza Calzado add color to the already colorful setting of the film. And yes, there’s even a seemingly well-woven tale of romance that’s brewing up in the film. What else can anyone ask for?